Mean Feelings!

Funny it looks 

While falling prey to mean feelings;

But I feel helpless at times:

One of my little cousins wore CK watch

The reaction of mine was:

Wide-opened eyes and curled lips

That was so immediate and authentic,

Though brief...

Know not whether it expressed my dismay

Of being worked my arse off for two decades 

Without a penny to afford for personal luxury,

Or the deep longing to be gifted as her 

To get every luxury stuff from parents and siblings...

Indeed, she is the sweetest little cousin, 

Whom I revere the most for her honest relationship!

Neither rational thinking nor compassionate feeling

Comes handy to assist me to be a better person. 

I don't regret my expression of jealousy either, 

But after a while, the adversity grounded me, 

And I sank in philosophical contemplation;

I laughed at my own meanness,

And I thought the CK piece was so beautiful on her wrist!